Have you ever asked your parents for something and they tell you no because you are to young? Yep, same here. You have no idea how often that happens with me. Then I ask how old I need to be and they say "When we think your ready." or "When your mature enough." Mature??? What on earth does mature mean? Well I'll tell you, to be mature you have to take the things into consideration before you you do them. Now do you understand? God's still working on my heart and I'm open to whatever He tells me to do.